When It All Started: Part 2

After 4 days of thrill,fun,intense competetion,enjoyment,introduction to new technologies,learning & a very tight schedule, fynally i am bak to continue the story that i had left...Its been a long tym n i was desperate(justifying the name ;)) to write this one...

So,starting frm where i left ya fir old hindi serials k jaise..."aur ab aage..."...:P ;)
I told u that how from nowhere the song 'teri kami' & then the team 'teri kami' came into the scene.After doing the 1st lift dat was eventually cancelled(thanks to satyam sir who thot that it was nt decent enough fr RO nd our clg to wich i also agreed) i knew it from the faces f my frns(those smiling cats!!!) dat nxt month or yr or 2 weren't gonna be easy fr me.I cud hav been  assigned a new name,ppl wud now hav a new face to tease me with,a new character etc etc...I just had to make it sure that it didnt continue fr long,although destiny had diffrent ideas...

As soon as teri kami was fynallised i cud c a new excitment in the janta sitting there. Aparna, shef, chandni, mamta, shabnam etc(matlab saare khalihar log,KV nd kullu were busy as alwys) ki shakal se to excitment tapak raha tha,they were getting to c a totally new side of my personality.Some1 lyk me doing a serius wala dance no. wud hav been in the last few things they wud hav thot abt me.

As mentioned the initial few steps were the toughest part.Specially the way i had to get up,mann dancing was never dat tough fr me.Anurag nd party were tryng their best to help me do it,bt in vain.I was afraid raat bhar na practice karni pad jae uthne ki.Bt then came my dance partner(who "now i knw" was enjoying it...dussht ladki :P ) with a suggestion "apna head piche ki ore free chhod do na"...bas yahin kam ban gaya.Steps after this weren't a big deal,jst the synchronisation was missing.

Then some of the lifts were practised & i cud c that "kutil musakan" on tiwari's face wondering wat was to come later in the eve.This alongwith my own consciousness made me xtra cautious,i didnt want to mess things up at any cost.The steps specially lifts were such dat a li'll here n there nd ny girl cud hav taken me in wrong sense(i am writing my crude feelings at that tym wich i hav pbbly told u earlier too,DTO them). Moreover i had no idea wat typ of girl Shweta was & also the fact that she ws chandni's rumy i had to ensure that i was nt taken wrongly(although i knew aparna,shef nd shayad even chanda were confident i ws nt that type of a boy).Neways the practice continued.

Some of the steps that anurag nd varsha decided were really cute.But ye chirkut ladki na,madam to pareshan hi kar din thi kabhi payal se chot de rahi thi kabhi galat way me jump karke nd rolling waale step(i dnt knw wat exactly dat step is calld) me apne hair se to poocho hi mat,evrytym no matter they were tied or left open,mere expressions ki to waat hi laga de rae the,samajh ni aa raha tha step karun ya inke hair se bachun :/.Ab tak humlog itne frank ho chuke the ki i cud point that out,though of no use.:/ ;)

We did  practice fr a considerable no. of tyms dat day and i had the feel wat i was upto.Fir kya thode aur auditions fr singing nd dancing(i was a busy person now wich ws also irritating me),thodi aur plannings,flex ka discussion(sab mujhi ko karna padta hai :/) etc nd it ws 8:30,collg chhod ke hostl jane ka tym.Anurag stayed @ my rum that nyt,we were to practice the steps @ nyt as i still had some pblms nd we had to get the synchronisation done too,but that never actually happened we were tired enough to get bak to our rooms,change & sleep.

Meanwhile,while returning bak to hostel,amit joined us,who was out of college the whole day for buying sm stuff nd was compeletly unaware of wat all had happened.When tiwari told him abt the dance he was lyk "kya?bhakk ******** mazak mat karo" then turning towards me,his eyes wide open "apurv,sai me??"...all i cud react with was a stupid si,blushing wali smile,nd he understood.Uske baad to maut thi meri...raste bhar teri kami hi hota raha,Amit did came with the deadly blow i ws afraid of, "accha ab samajh aya subah apurv kyu keh raha tha abt the 'singh' girl",fir to even i cudnt stop myself frm laughing my throat out.Bhagwan bhi kya kya game khelte hain,khali-peeli sidhe saade bacche ko badnam kar diya :P ;)...

Raat ko sote tym i msgd aparna asking wat were her thots,i shud continue wid d perfomance or not nd her words were really relaxing(shez a sweet heart really),i still remember "are pagal ho kya,tum kar loge.Aaj to tumhara ekdam naya side dekhne ko mila.Keep it up.Abhi so jao kal fresh hoke practice bhi karni hai."That was the final touch that stamped me into 'teri kami'...

Then din bhar k kai saari baten sochte hue ranging frm the voice of shweta(lolzz...she was a 1st yr who came fr auditions fr singing & had an excellent voice) to the flex design,to the muscles dat i pulled & the new frnd that i made mai neend ki god me chala gaya...

Phewww...isi ke sath this special day of 26th september khatam hua...

Next day ke liye stay tuned...:P ;)

an answer.....

I think I hav got answr 2 ur question(remember ur status)…..well d situation promptd me 2 think ovr it…y do i wantd a persn in my lyf…well nt having frnz can never b a reasn 4 it(in my case)..d reasns  were different..i hv mentioned a few here..dey mite help u too...u knw wht feelings r really very simple…its jst dat we run away from accepting dem…dey r really simple, pure n serene…jst natural n beautiful….hope u r reading it wid full feeling though I m xpecting u r nt.

u knw wht we hav plenty of ppl around us..bt still we miss sm1…sm1 who cud jst cum suddenly frm  nowhere n cuddle u frm behind n giv solace 2 ur heart…ofcourse dere has 2 b smthing special abt him/her..
parents care for us wen we r small..wait! dnt start  judging me…wen we grow up, parents still love n care us…bt dey stop showing..dey want u 2 face d wrld n grw strong…hm bhi ghr se nikalte hain pure vishwas k sath dat m strong nuf 2 face it all..bt dere is a fear in ur heart(u dnt accept it) u want sm1 2 luk into ur eyes n hold ur hand n tell u its gonna b fy9..nobdy wud repeat d same line 4 u hundred times dan d 1 who loves u..
u hav frnz 2 talk2 bt still we say we want sm1 wid whum I can share everything…u can definitely share everything wid frnz…bt dere is fear again dat stops u..strange bt true..m sure u rnt comfortable pouring ur heart in frnt of ur evn best frnd in d purest form of feelings.. its dn u think of a hypothetical person 2 whom u cud hav told it all n felt lighter...u tell ur frns ;dey hear  n giv u deir xpert advices. Bt smtimes we dnt want advices(situations lyk where tym is an ans or do nt hav ny ans)..al we want is r lover 2 kiss away d pain frm r heart..n a shoulder 2 relax on..ofcorce ur frnz vl say chal bahar chlte h..mood sahi ho jayega.. daru party krte hain..etc etc..bt jst think of d pleasure dat a hug can giv u.. d smile on his/her face, d radiance,tangling ur finger in2 her/his  hair or fingers etc( sry m thodi zyada sapneeli hun..dnt knw if u knw dis syd of me)…
u hav ur younger sis/ bro 2 take care of bt still u need 1 4 whom u want to liv, 4 whom u wrk n 4 whom u can sacrifice everything….loving  sm1 n being lovd by d same persn  is really d most beautiful feeling in d wrld…u want 2 take care of dat spcl sm1…u allow ur sis/bro  2  face d wrld(again d same feeling..u want dm 2 grw up n get strong) bt d spcl persn is already of ur age(near about…m nt talking about cheeni kam cases)..u want 2save her/ him frm d harsh realities of wrld…u wanna take her face in cup of ur hands(cup nt literally…jst imagine her face in ur hands) n keep her safe..protect her..u take her as feeble, soft doll who jst needs u or is crazy nuf 2 get in2 troubles…n u want 2 b wid her/him  preserving frm every prick on d way..a single tear in her eyes can create earthquake,landslides all at d same tym in ur heart…n dn wen dat sm1 jst turns her face n smiles at u..all ur  tention vanishes..its virtual bt wid real feel..amazing realisation…if u ever paid attention to all wht I wrote dere is 1 thing commo manifesting itself in different forms….guess wht??

Try try…u can…hmmn… okhei…its  d sweet ,gentle ‘touch’…plz..DTO.. I expect u 2 b serious n no joke OR insane thoughts abt it..u knw y ppl do handshake..its a touch dat brings warmth..a trange feel of trust..ur hanshake can tel smwht abt ur personality..evn if d prsn is nt physically present in frnt of u..u try 2 feel her/hm, miss her/hm..feel of her being close...u need sm1 4 whom u can proudly say 2 urself…she/he is mine ..all mine..jst mine..n m all hers/his… dis feeling of possession is strange bt very strong n relevant 2(though I still don’t support it in frndship).
howsoever u r parents , bro/sis loves u, dis feelin is different....

 We want a spcl persn in lyf..whose very presence can make wrld go beautiful, n whose absence pains lyk nything…d craving 2 reach her/him n take dat persn in ur arms n never let him/her go. Be loved truly, deeply madly n loving d same way…smtimes dere is a lot of joy in giving ur everything  2 a person…songs aise he ni  hote..dere is a lot of reason in dm..
ptani maine yahi sochkr likha tha k ni…jaise he feel hua k ans mila likh diya..ho skta h beech me koi aur road pakad li ho..i mite hav been carried away by feelings while writing it..hope it answers ur question..all d best!!

ps: pta ni kya kya likh diya,ab padhkr khud hasi aa ri h...bt bohot serious,ekdum charged wid feelings wali state me likha tha..

jst d beginning ;)..

october 25, 2011

11:30am

Hi diary..

It has been a long time since I shared my secrets wid u….sry 4 being so busy..bt u knw I cant stay away frm my lov 4 long..so here I m back again wid lots of happiness and, of cource, wid hoards of confusion…As I promised u dat I wont let my dis sem  go in vain n dat I’l do smthng interesting n happening . So, 2day ws d second day of SAJ(sports events)….I participated in googly…d cricket wid special rules for girls I told u, remember??..smtimes its really good 2 b a girl n hv a poor sex ratio ;-) ..the govt gives u reservation in education, parliament, njoy benefit in lesser income taxes etc..hey sry sry.. c’mon u knw me diary..i ws jst kidding.

Cuming back 2 d topic..Aftr d match I ws quite tired..ofcource nt bcz of playing bt awieee…colg ki sadke naapte-2  shayad…n also it hadn’t been a gud day 4 nsp(nainsukhprapti)..last time to kitne bande pasand aye the..n abki bar to ek b ni L . Well aftr d match I jst went 2 my rum n thought of lying on mah bed n dream. My fav timepass J :P :D…bt suddenly my phone rang..i liftd it quickly…it gives me immense pleasure wen my phone rings ;)…it was mamta…she askd me 2 cum dwn near d transformer…all my tiredness disappeared at once..it wsnt d time 2 dream..it ws 4 action!!

I went dere……to me d scene sumhw appeared artistic… it’s a bit difficult 2 xplain bt lemme try..u knw I lyk strange things. I m also quite obsessed with sitng on side of a clean road in a group. No no..nt 4 strike or dharna(though dats xciting too) n nt evn wid ny bowl in mah hand  bt jst  awiee, casually.. hanji to sb itne aaram se sadak kinare pasre hue the..n kullu k mathe me to itni tension bhari lines thi k I cud visualise wo  50 saal bad kaisa lagega :P..tiwari ji apne me he mughd the..varsha n anurag were trying 2 think of sum steps ….hmmn….kuch to rangeeniyat thi us nazare me .. mano..

“Ek Shararat Hone Ko Hai
Ek Qayamat Hone Ko Hai”:P

 I hd 2 coreograph sm  songs  for JHANKAAR…mamta knew my love for dance n hd cald me at once she felt d need. Bt u knw hw shy I m..(blush ka smiley ni pta..manage wid this) J!  At first, I hesitated  bt cudnt stop my feet picking up d beats 4 long..dancing is 1thing dat can make me go mad n forget everything...i m jst myself while dancing n my happiness knws no bounds...d smile, laugh all cums straight from d heart..everything gets beautiful..:). People  siting out dere were murmering smthing…n I knew wht ws it abt…every grl is blessed wid a special sixth sense ;).  Soon mamta  askd me if I can perform in OP n whispered in my ears, all the appreciation I ws getn.…I found myself blushing J n beeming with joy. Like every other grl, I 2 love appreciation.;).

RO Plant doesn’t njoy good repo in r colg..bt u knw since first yr I wanted 2 perform on R.O. It ws ofcourse d best time. Bt I hav a protocol “never accept wht ur heart says at first..mind is wiser..let ur heart convince ur mind...” . so, I refused.   I ws afraid of getng defamed. U knw it matrs a lot 2 me.  So, here I m in a fight mind vs heart..its really interesting  bt requires a hell lot patience n sumtimes coffee 2…yeah..it helps keeping u in ur senses..:P

N pta I heard a new song 2day…”teri kami”..anurag  suggested 2 dance on it..yr gazab ka song tha…n video bhi bohot sahi thi…bt we hav jst 1 day left for preparation L. Ab to mushqil h..koini  we wil take sum odr song….:/

In all had a mast, rapchick day….lets c wat awaits 2mrw...my fingers r crossed!! J

When it all began: part1

hmmm...to kahan se start karen...its always easier to suggest than to follow the same...:P
i am also taking u bak to the day when it all probably started...all bole to dosti...;)
so...it was a bright monday morning...after speaking a series of lies to KV, i fynally showed up in college,late again for the serius wali preparation of OP i.e. JHANKAAR '11.Reason for being late was dat i had to come frm my bro's place...
Making my way to college and preoccupied by the thoughts of what happened last day(my meeting with aditi my childhood friend) and some other ppl i knew, i unknowingly & out of stupidity said to my frns "yarr tum log ko pata hai,mujhe lagta hai meri shaadi kisi 'singh' se hi hogi" ;), totally unaware of what was gonna come in the near future.
Neways, after some auditions taken in the courtyard,near AB3 & on the RO v the team got a permanent adda- 'girls hostel k paas wala generator'...
Since i had to meet aditi nd swati i cud not show up on sunday fr the preparation.The major updates that i recieved were that anurag nd varsha were rdy fr a duet and we had another dance group with 3 grls, shweta from 3rd year(better known to us as chandni's nd mamta's rumy 'then') and 2 girls frm 2nd year.Some other auditions were dun,then the progress in the dances that had been fynallised were seen(which were pathetic,seriusly) :P...yea madhubala lukd exciting...
Then anurag came to me telling me dat he wantd to do 'teri kami',the song nd d vdo i showed him 2 days bak,mind u jst fr the sake of showing.I ws strictly against performing it coz i didnt want ny compromises with this song...
My 1st 2nd nd 3rd reactions were nai yar,dimag kharab hai kya nd 2 din me its impocible,since i just loved the song & did not want to waste it...i realise it now how special it turned out to be...:))
Fine then sum1,i dnt remmber who sed kar lene de yar,anurag also sed he had thot of some steps too nd went on pressing for it,so i fynally agreed...:)
So this is how 'teri kami' came into the picture.
Practice ke tym pe chalte hain,i ws still nt sure if i wanted it to happen,bt then since i was helpless,i decided y nt give the best we had to mak it a superhit.To humlog lag gae, anurag,varsha playing the lead nd were being ably guided by shweta(still chandni nd mamta ki rumy :P) who had the impression of one of the bttr dancers in d 3rd yrs(han baad me i gave her a tough competeion ;):P) nd with me keeping a constant watch over the proceedings.I was mid way probably explaining some step or may be some joke when shef nd aparna said 'apurv tum dance kyu nai kar lete??' (pbbly owing to the reputation that i earned in discs in oorja partys).Nd i said mazak me 'tumhe uthaenge hum?? Uske liye tumhe kritesh se bat karni chahiye.'  Ispe shef said are mere nai kisi aur ke sath karlo fir sm1 suggested 'shweta' itna suggest karne ki der thi ki half of the janta started saying han han karlo karlo,ek bar try to karo,stage bahot empty lagega sirf 2 logon me etc etc..nd i was lyk haiin???ai ki ho riya hai??? Dancing in a disc ws a different thing alltogethr..Although i had the experience of 4-5 perfomances bt those were school days nd yahan aake that too in 3rd year- BIG DEAL!!!
Neways thode se ana-kani nd then mujhe manna hi pada.Fir kya 1-2 lifts ki practice.Lifting a 47kg Shweta was nvr gonna be difficult fr a tough,70kg Apurv.:P
The tougher task was still to come,facing ur frns aftr doing those lifts wid a grl...facing all those insane comments and tolerating,although shweta wasnt that close or special(at that tym),bt still it felt bad...://
Neways,then me nd anurag started practicing fr the initial steps featuring jst us(me nd him).Mann!! that was the most difficult phase,pata nai kahan kahan ki muscles pull huin while practicing those steps.It was then that the thot of backing out crossed my mind bt then i recalled anurag saying "sir shweta maam ka bhi bahot man hai ye karne ka,kar lo na...",followed by a look at "chandni's nd mamta's rumy ;)" which showed me a fully charged and enthusiastic grl discussing smthng with varsha...and then i thot 'kar hi lete hain yar..'


PS:- koi ehsan ya daya nai,jst going with my basic philosphy that i wantd evry1 to be happy :)


Coming to shweta,who now was my dance partner apart frm my frns' rumy...The few instances of our interaction before that were pbbly sm fb comments out of wich i remmbered 1 wich she did on one of my status in wich i wrote smthng against the use of abusive language wich gave me an impression that "ye ladki to samajhdar lagti hai" ;)... 
V were pbbly destined to be bttr frns...:) ;) :(
It was a long day will post the rest of the story later...till then...
To be continued...

PS:-To White Shadow-
 yarr iitk ke liye robot ka bohot sara kam karna hai to i wrote it with thoda hila hua mind so neglect all grammatical mistakes :P...nd same rsn ke karan thoda tym of 26th september is still left...will update it later...
its ur turn now...GO FOR IT nd AB KOI BAHANA NAI CHALEGA...do also tell me humlog ekdusre ke liye 3rd person use karenge ya 2nd person,bada confused hun yarr...

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heyllo...ye llo...:P
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