food for thought...

hey hi dost..we hv always been discussing r happy n sad times..n today i m gng to share one of my childhood dream wid u..hope u read it wid full concentration n heart...its written in one tym go..so u wil plenty of mistakes..plz ignore dm..

"About 20 million children, about 4% of their population in India and higher than people living in Delhi, are orphan. Of them, parents of only 0.3% children have died and rest have been abandoned. The figure is result of a study done by SOS Children’s Village by analyzing data from

National Family Health Survey-3 for the year 2005-06 and the population estimation by the Census of India to find the dark spots for children below the age of 18 in India."
wen i ws lil young..probably in 7th-8th cls i always felt dat i shud do something for orphan children..eh! i really hate dat wrd!!wel, i always thought dat wen i vl grow up n hav money i vl adopt a child..though vl definately hav mine own too....i thought  if every grl who is in financialy gud condition adopts a child, it wil realy change d present scenario..as i grew up i realised its nt as simple as i hav taken it to b..so here i cum wid a new plan...PSEUDO-ADOPTION.

It is simple to understand. i dnt hav to take d child home..i dnt hav to giv  my property to him..bt dere is a lot i cn still do for him/her..Assume i pseudoadopt a child...i cn pay his school fees..so dat he gets gud education n nt jst d namesake..i cn take proper care of al his needs-food, clothing(remember al i m doing is jst for one child). vl take him out and make him visit certain places(nearby only as per convinience n interest..motive here is to spend tym wid him outside d orphanage) i will take care of him till d tym he grows into a responsible young boy who understands his situation n is ready to wrk 4 a bettr lyf..n he will always b my child..i vl visit him atleast twice a week..he wud cum running to me,hug me n dn take his gifts..he wil know wht is love..wht is care..he vl b a gud human n once in gud condition he himself wil do smthing 4 children lyk him..here pseudoadopting means acting as a parent n nt jst giving money once a month.. u hav to visit him regularly n u r responsible to look aftr al  his needs odr dan shelter n may b food..he is dependent on u nw for his development.. he is ur child bt u dnt own him..

if u paid attention i said pseudo adopting a child.. u may ask y only a child? y nt distributing d same amount of guds to all of d children? making al happy..well u r right..dis is wht is being done in today's tym..bt u think urself wen i take responsibility of a single child..i cn concentrate more on him..if dis concentratn is distributed it will do less gud in a long tym run...dey wont develop..it will b like "uth k muh me zeera"  it might make dm happy for sum tym bt will nt eliminate dis problem.. ,if some ppl adopt d child like dis..dose children vl really c a better 2mrw n we cn sleep well thinking dat yes i did smthng gud today..smthing dat makes me feel human..well in a year or so..we all will strt earning..out of dat 1000/- rupees a month shudnt b mch a deal to spend on these children..n well wen it cums to managing we r d ustads..dn y nt try dis?

jst wantd to knw wht is ur take on it? u think people will realise it n cum frward wid dis idea?
yeah one more thing..jst after a year or so of thinking of adopting a child(7th or 8th) bipasha basu n sum odr celebreties adopted a child..dey r al unmarried mostly..n i m nt asking ppl to adopt a child bt pseudo adopt him! let us make it a trend! a fashion! where all young dynamic ppl(ppl wid brains to realise this issue) cn confidently n elevate this idea!!!

true commments plz..difficulties n questions vl also b ackknowledged!

The End...Or ...The Beginning??? ;)

Well well...It has been a long tym,a long tiring period of tym...bt fynally i am bak.Afterall kab tak apne is tym pass se duur rehte.;)
Continuing wid d story, it was showtime!!!
Jhankar....woooh fynall the day had arrived, all the efforts that were being put in for last week or so boiled down to this day.Evrything was set,evryone though nervous but was ready.We the 3rd yrs as alwys had a lot to do frm making the wrist bands,to fynallising the events,their order,to making last minute adjustments in the perfomances,arranging guitar players for singing perfomance,mixing for dance perfomances etc etc.Duniya bhar ki tension liye and equal amount of exxcitment & anxiousness liye i left the hostel,anticipating a special evening.I couldnt get a gud nyt sleep due to the skit practice the previous nyt but was still up and pumped up in the morning.The publicity work was done quite decently by the 2nd yrs and 3rd yrs.We just had to give our 100% on this final day.
So, the day started kuldeep & myself were supposed to plan out the events & their order,ladies deptt were given the responsibility of preparing the bands,aparna,mamta,shef,myself & kuldeep also had to practice our hosting part,KV,dev and 2nd yrs had to manage the RO with the DJ,audio system and flex.It was going to be a busy day.:)
I was busy with some work on laptop when varsha and anurag came up & said "sir sync nai baitha hai abhi 1-2 last practice kar lete hain".I saw the faces near me, gautam & amit with a cunning smile & then some1 made a remark "uske liye to apurv kabhi mana nai karega'...i was lyk "crap!!! yar 1 din ki to bat hai"... nd then i realised it ws the last day of our practice!! All the fun would end today.Kal se classes krni padengi..
;(:P
You were not available probably coz of ur lab sessionals.Then you showed up after sometime.And then the practice!!! Practice ke to kya kehne,jaise kasam hi kha ke aaen hon aj serious hona hi nai hai.Fir bhi somehow thodi bohot ppractice ho hi gai.I remmber kuch prblm thi end wale part me song ke,but wo end tak sai ni ho pai,cz kullu busy tha.
Neways apni thodi bohot prac kar ke humari panchayat baith gai,duniya bhar ki baten,frm sabke scul days,to family,to chandni,to non veg & to "DAARU"...;):D
Initially i thot kya hum bhi yaha baithe hain and baki log waha pareshan ho rae honge kam kar kar ke, but then i thot 'sab kam mai hi karun' to bas chhod diya unke haal pe.;)
After some tym we left the gen set area,fr the last tym...now i realise how special that place had become for me..:(...ab bhi waha nazar padti hai to ek smile aa hi jati hai...:)
Isi bat pe arz hai- Baton me wo zor ho jo har insan me imaan daal de, yadon mein ho wo kashish jo bejaan raston me bhi jaan dal de....;)
Uske baad to turbo mode me aane ka tym tha...Kullu hyper hua ja rha tha,sabke upar chilla rha tha,mujhe bhi kuch gusse me bola, man to kiya palat ke jawab de dun bt bechara sai bat ke liye pareshan tha.Meri hosting ki script ready nai thi,shef likh to li thi but dikhai ni thi hume,plus singerss ki bhi final practice nai hui thi,kuch ke to guitar bhi arrange nai ho pae the.Bohot tension ho rai thi.But still we were confident we'll be able to manage all.Then shef brought the script,2 bar prac ki nd we were all gud wid it.
Then fynally JHANKAR '11 started!!! Nandu nd party took the lib ke upar wali seats,ashu nd grroup were a lvl above them.Meri halat tyt ho rai thi,hosting mujhe n shef ko start karni thi and starting me hi public ka attention khichna wasnt an easy task.Khaer we were gud(as per ashu & 2 of my faculty members who were present :))...fir meri and kullu ki bakaitiyan start huin wich alongwith some interesting fillers came out to be gud.But 1 gadbad ho rai thi,saari perfomances itni jaldi ho rai thi ki humari perfomance aane tak lights jal hi na pati.But i was desperate,i said to kullu dat hum log andhere ke pehle to aenge hi nai jo bhi karlo.Then we increased some fillers, thodi prizes aur di nd then we were back on track.
Itne tym tak u were nowhere in the vicinity,when our perfomance approached near,i asked about u,jab anurag se pucha to he said "uff sir,thoda ruk jao",and again that cunning smile,man to kiya ek khich ke lagaun,ek to aise hi itni tension ho rai thi nd inko mazak sujh raha tha.Neways baccha samjh ke chhod diya.
Then u arrived,nd tumhara makeup...yukk!!I dont usually comment in sab baton pe bt us din actually pata nai tumne kya karaya tha.:P
Then humara bhi no. aa hi gaya.Mera dar bas shirt change karne tak tha uske bad to jab hmlog 1 bar jaake pad gae floor pe,sab kuch makkhan ke maafic nikal gaya...Hooting to highlight thi...Maza hi aa gaya,peeche se pratibha mera nam hi chillae ja rai thi nd mai sharam se gada ja raha tha.;)
Aftr we returned,i got busy wid da hooting inputs from the mic fr 'madhubala' nd shayad maine tumhe congratulate bhi nai kiya tha.:P
Aftr that tumhara 'dhunki' ha ha ha...As i told u,one of the most awaited songs for me,but band baja di gai uski,thodi der tak to samjh hi nai aya ki hua kya.But koi bat nai,all is well that ends well.And end me teri kami again.That was actually heartening(apart frm the hooting jisse bechare bacche pareshan ho gae the) ;)
Shef nd Varsha's dance was gr8 too..3rd yr showed its mettle..._\m/
Dheere dheere it all ended.Han we did hav maaaza,wich let me tell u contains salt(and is nt allowed in fast).
And uske baad foto session ka to sochke hi sharam aa jati hai,pata nai kya dimag me aya,may be jo 2 days se chidhaya ja rha tha uska frustation tha ya tata ke chidhane ka jawab dene ka man...://
Uske bad thodi der tak mere mud ko saanp sungh gaya tha,ws tryng my bst to stay normal,fir thodi der bad dekha tum farar ho to laga yarr lagta hai zada gadbad ho gai,abi to friend kehna hai ya nai ye bhi cnfirm nai tha nd uske pehle hi itni 9tanki ho gai.Fir chandni se pucha to use kuch pata hi nai.Usse somehow no. nikalwaya fir bade soch vichar ke bad i thot phone kar hi lete hain.It felt bttr aftr talking to u.Fir kya i was bak in form,subah se vrat ke chakkar me kuch khaya nai aur samne pizza...Bas toot pada uspe,kya apna kya padosi ka,sab kha gaya.:):D
Fir to prakhar sir ne propose kiya sabko flat pe chaloge,unko mai mana nai kr paya,i sed han sir(1 bar to unke sath peeni banti thi).But jab ye khabar faili to mehfil hi jam gai tiwari,amit,kullu,Kv sab aa gae...And uske baad to tumhe kya bataun..."Daaru Puraan" u know...;):P
This was the end of Jhankar'11 which was also probably the main reson behind us sitting and writing all these khatti meethi baten and preserving our khatti meethi yaden!!!:):):)

jhankaar beats ;)

hiii sweety :))...m back wid a new episode of r badnaam dosti..:P:P
taking u back 2 d good old days..:)
hnji to it ws d day of performance, d day all hv been waiting 4 except me(mujhe practice zyada achi lagti h..final k bad to sb ovr ho jata h:/).
subah frst cls to sone me he miss kar d...maa kasam kya mast neend ati h subah..hamare colg wale night shifts me clses kyu ni kr dete! fir to pakka m sari cls krungi...hehe :P To shayad maine ek adh cls k morning me n dn i saw u ppl sitting in courtyard..aparna, cs log announcement krne a rhe the..dn i guess either anurag or me prompted ki ek bar aur practice kr lete hain..fir kya u 2 were ready..varsha bhi aa gyi n hm pohoch gye sadde adde pe...haye ram jb bhi us din ko yad krti hun, hasne k alawa kuch yaad ni ata..us din to agr commedy circus wale hume dekh lete to archana pooran singh ki to chhutti pakki thi :P:P so we started practicing...oye age sach me kuch bhi yaad ni aa rha..bs anurag ka chehra yad h kehte hue..mam plz krlo..itna mat haso..n next tym mai ni hasi to wo khud he hasne lga tha..sara coordination hil gya tha..ek bhi step ni..lift ho he ni rahi thi..sahi hona to dur ki baat h..bt fir bhi we were determined 2 do it..bas darr tha ki RO pr na create ho jaye..fir to comedy circus k contestent bhi hm he ban jate..khair yad ni ki fynally sahi ho paya tha k ni..pr fir hm sb baith gye the 'bakaiti' katne ko..hope d spelling is correct..:P hnji to discussion kaha se shuru hu...ni pta..bus kuch kuch batein yaad hain..daru se lekar non-veg food sb discuss kiya tha...u told me ki u dnt drink..shayad tb tak bs ek bar pee thi..wo bhi beer n wo bhi ek can me ath log!!! ye ultimate tha! n bechara anurag non-veg ni khata to hm aur non veg ki batein krk use chida rhe the..maine bhi tumhe apni trip wali lost chance k bare me btaya tha... n ye bhi ki non veg ni khati bt wanna try..tumhe pta jb ek din hm sb log photocopy shop k bahar baith kr baikaiti kaat rhe the n mujhse kisi ne poocha tha non veg k liye n meri zagah tmne ans de diya tha ki ye non-veg ni khati..hamari saas atak gyi thi..ki ab to mazak banna pakka..bt chalo bach gyye..nyways cmng back 2 d topic...anurag ne kuch apni school me tragedy hone ki baat bhi btayi thi jo wo btana bhi chahta tha n nahi bhi..bt kisi ne zyada insist kiya he ni bechare ko..varsha ekdum chupchap apne phone me lagi thi shayad..bde phone ate the yr ladki k..:P:P khair pta ni aise batiyate batiyate acha khasa tym kat gya tha..aparna,cs n shefali log naraz the..kitni practice krni hoti h in logo ko..asif bus ek'teri kami' he hone wala h OP me..n shefali ne kaha ki unka bhi to dance h..unhone to bs do bar he kiya aur ho gya...n varsha ki bhi burai ki...wo kaam ni krti h bs dabnce kra lo..uske batchies bhi naraj the ki use kam se xemption kyu mil rha h..badi mushkil se cs ko samjhaya thanks 2 mamta..ki apan log k step to ho gye the..bt coordination k liye practice chahiye hai..n shefali logo ka dance more of balad tha..lyrics based..only 2 members..less of coordination required...n varsha ko bhi defend kiya ki bechari thak jati h..pure din to wo practice krti h..bt dis ws of no use...
well tym beeta..n we were backstage..haye re jaan nikal rahi thi dar k mare..kuch bhi yad ni aa rha tha..u were on stage...sach btau to i ws missing u...kash tm aa jao... n firse hm haskr darr bhaga skein..khair i ws very happy 2 c anurag..wo thodi der wahi bat krta rha...fir tum bhi aa gye..felt a bit relaxed...u n anurag memorised few of ur steps..."d kamartod steps" :P:P":D..arey han tmne apne lower pe tape bhi lgaya tha na:P:P khair hm bhi kb tak khair mnate..apni chance bhi aa gyi..lights dimmd...we al took r positions..dhadkane tez..me waiting for running or betr say jumping on ur thigh..n dn we r in form..flowing wid d sng..ful2 xpressions...n thank god..coordination 2...haye re kya hooting hui thi bey...awesum..maza he aa gya tha...one of bestest moments of my lyf..though it ws soon 2 b folowed by wrst 1...bt koina...balance maintain rehna zaroori tha..dn again dere ws again a call for teri kami..it ws gud 2..xcept d last lift jise maine kabada kr diya..
soon..d mst awaited ws nw near 2 its end...photo session chalu tha....pta ni who said for d teri kami grp photograph..well i ws in..jst lov facing camera....hehe :P bt fir sb maze lene lage..me n u were on xtreme corners initially..bt were dn askd 2 stand in couple..we did..bt wid my arms lockd in2 mine n wid a distance..dn aparna askd u 2 put ur hand around my shoulder..i put it dwn..sry if u felt rude..bt it ws jst dat i ws nw feeling bit conscious..well photosession to ho gya...i sat aside wid mridu..waiting for mamta n cs 2 get free...i suddenly realised dat dey werent dere nymore..i thought k wo log rum pr chale gye..shayad mai unhe dikhi nahi isliye ni pucha...m bhi room pr chali gyi..bt wo log waha nahi the..opend fb n saw ur status...fir socha abhi to bhala chnga tha...ise kya ho gya...bt mujhe zyada der sochna nahi pda...teri call aa gyi...n hm sochne lge abey tu aisa kya lag gya..bt khair tm mujhe jante ni the..mujhe aisi bato pr sirf hasi ati h gussa nahi..:P:P
khair cs came to room soon..n told al dat happnd behind me..she told me k tm dhuki wale song k tym camera lekr beech me akr baith gye the..n fir bohot mazak udaya..n han use bura bhi lga tha tera ye action..chl aur to mujhe kuch bhi yad ni....over 2 u....bbyee...:))

Pre Jhankaar practice:Making of unforgettable memories...

Mood kharab,dimag me chemical locha,storms of thots inside da head nd jst 1 person wid whom i cn share evrythng nd dat too is off to sleep...to kya karen..socha kahani ko hi aage badha den...
Last 'episode' me apne dekha how did the '2 despos' get to knw each othr nd how they became dance partners...:P
Lets get on with the story now...
So a new day had begun,thoda dara dara sa bt andar se happy happy i left hostel fr the preparation of jhankaar...bahot sara kam manage karna tha bt since i had the dance now to mjhe thoda relaxation mil gaya tha daud bhag wale field wrk se(thanks to team teri kami),bt still kai sare singing wale auditions bache the nd jinhe select kiya tha unki bhi progress dekhni thi,poora 1st yr bevkuf tha koi prac nai kiya tha,1-1 cheez samjhani padti thi inhe,frm stage presence to variation to voice modulation evrythng,increasiing my headache...:/
Neways saari practice strt ho gain.Jo jahan khopcha paa raha tha strt ho ja raha tha.Anurag nd Varsha ki 'madhubala' ki practice ke bad humlog ki baari thi n ek bar fir if nt all to kai saari nazren humari taraf thin...The practice strted.Now i ws feeling bttr nd more confident abt watever i ws doing,nd my participation level nd presence of mind was also bttr.Steps to sai ho rae the bt dono pair ke coordination ki waat lagi hui thi.Hum log(me nd shweta) bar bar lag kr ja rae the.Mere lambe lambe hathon ko jab tak shweta ek bar cover krti utni der me varsha 2 tyms anurag ke chote hand span ko cover kr le rai thi ;) ha ha ha,nd then upar se hand position exchange krte tym bar bar hath fans ja rae the cz shweta ki height kam thi.Coordination ws smthng jo shayad seedhe final perfomance me hi aya tha,if i m nt cmpltly wrong.:P
Another thing worth mentioning,the steps.Some of the steps were nt decided.Myself nd anurag were discussing over them watchn d original vdo nd then we saw that hath paas laake eyes in eyes dalke wala step nd that piche se hath rakhne wala nd wo hand in hand nd halki si wave jisme leni thi wo wala step...nd we decided to use them in d song.Tb kisne socha tha ye steps itne special hone wale hain.:):D
Lifts me abhi bhi pblm aa rai thi,grip uncomfrtable si thi madam ko(mujhe to us tym gussa aa raha tha 1 to waise hi lifts me thodi hichkichahahat si thi mujhmen uspe bhi discussion ://) nd mehnat bi zada lag rai thi us grip me..then anurag ki grip try ki to sai ho gaya,we both were much more comfortable with it.:)
That day or the nxt shayad,arpita nd kriti maam bhi aae hue the(pass outs frm yfac,they are lyk angels fr me nd mjhe bhi wo log bhot maante the).Arpita maam ne classicl seekha tha to i askd her to cm nd see our practice nd she agreed,kriti maam also accompanied her.
Sham ko unlog ne dekha humara dance nd they both were impressed bs wai coordination ki kami thi.They said both d song nd d dance were very sweet bs coordination sudhar lo...nd again mere xpressions ki tareef (as usual)...:P
That day after dat i went to arpita maam who ws roaming alone in d clg,cz kriti mam had left...waha bohot maza aya,maam ws lost in her clg memories.We talkd abt our clg n scul memories...it was so sweet of her sharing ol those things wid me,mai bhaukali hun na sab log mujhse share karte hain.;):)
Aftr dropping her on the main gate aftr abt 1/2hr,it ws tym to get bak to wrk.Pehle to 1-2 auditions aur liye nd then thode discussion ke bad it was tym fr teri kami ki prprn...Bevkuf shweta apni frn radhika ko bhi leti aai thi nd mujhe sharam aa rai thi dance krne me..bt kya krte,i had to do it.:/
Hum dono ka mazak banna strt ho gaya tha isiliye mai kisise nazren ni mila raha tha.fir bhi thoda bahot chal raha tha...Ab tak hum dono ki bhi apas me tuning sai typ ki ho gai thi..Wo un awazon pe mazak karna,shweta nd varsha ka starting step me daudne se pehle hi hans padna,coordination gadbadane pe hansi mazak karna...in sab me sab ko hi khub maza aa raha tha.
Then isi beech decide hua dat last me all the oorja members frm 2nd n 3rd yr wud be dancing on 'har ek frn zaruri hota hai'...mast dance ki coreography shef n aparna n chanda kar rae the shayad...Earlier shef didnt hav a partner bt mai jaise hi khali hua usme bhi ghus gaya,the idea in itself ws so mast dat i cudnt cntrl myself...Then pre-jhankar nyt pe jab kafi had tak kam khatam ho gaya tha then all of us decided to relax a li'll,that too by dancing..Mauka bhi tha dastoor bhi tha nd resources bhi,fir kya masti on switty switty,dhunki,shaktimaan nd end me har ek frn zruri hota hai pe bhi dance hua,those were sm of the best moments of my cllg lyf wich i realise now...wen things hav changed so drastically nd disastrously(i dnt knw if dat wrd exists)...its now that i had realised dat tym is irreversible specially due to the conditions prevailing...The hope of smthng equivalent is more of cheating urself...bt kya karun dil hai ki manta nai...may be someday i'll be able to bring evry1 bak 2gether again nd remind them "har ek frn zaruri hota hai"..:):)
Coming bak to the story..Sab ke chehre pe 440 volt ki supply ki khushi dikh rai thi...Evry1 was xcitd about 'wat wud happen tomoro?koi gabad to ni hogi etc etc) nd myslf, kullu nd KV sabko samjha rae the ki sab mast ho jaega pareshan mat ho...At last the show ws over..nd v returned bak..
The day wasnt over yet.Ab hostel aake 1st nd 2nd yrs ke play ki taiyyari karwani thi(dekha na kitna responsbilities hai is 6.2ft ki nanhi si jaan pe)..Kya wahiyat dialogues the yar,khatarnak ekdam ki poora RO hil jata,dbl meaning se ot-prot.Kai sare dialogues hmlog ne milke katwae nd edit karwae fir.Bt some of the actors were gud.Itne me mamta ka phn ata hai abt the dress fr d dance.To pata chala shweta ki chot(sm sweeling type ki thi) had increased...It wasnt that painful in the evening bt it ws pbbly hurting her dat tym.To i jst asked mamta to take care nd sekai karne ko bola...Bas itna sa gunah tha ki fir se khichai ho gai..:/..Ek bar to mai bhi sochne pe majbur ho gaya if i ws getting too protective bt then nai yaarrr itna to banta hai,akhir dance partner thi meri...;):P
Raat me around 3 am tak shayad we had to stay bak there guiding their practice fir subah jaldi uthna bhi tha...bas fir kya jaate hi bed pe fael gae...Us din to sapna kya aya ye bhi yaad nai...:P

This was a view of the pre-Jhankar era ,the happenings that took place on the day of Jhankar nd aftr that be wud be mentioned in next editions.
Till then shubh ratri,shabba khaer!!!
Maze karooo.........

ye raat dhal na jaye..samet lun main har pal..:)

Samajh ni aa rha kithe te start karun..jaise he sochti hun kuch likhun…neend aane lagti h…eh! Writing is really a tough..actually very very tough job for me…I can do d reading part pretty well..oye chal ek deal krte hain..tu likh..mai apna part comment me add on kr dungi.what say??…waise pta h mujhe tera ans kya hoga! Bhais k age been bajane se koi fayda ni..bachpan me pdha tha :p..likhne me sare dimag ki kasrat ek sath ho jati h…bt chal tera nam lekar shuru ho jati h....hehe..:P

Hanji to kaha khatm kiya tha…ok yad aya..to loji ho gyi nayi subah….actually din :P chhutti  me zaldi kaun uthta h..!khair  jaldi he pohoch gye apne naye adde pe…varsha n anurag were really doing good…maza aa rha tha!! :D frst song was done! Time for d second 1..u hv already mentioned hw teri kami came in2 picture..so it ws decided dat varsha n anurag wil perform on it…n I had 2 do dhunki(uska to nam lene ka bhi man ni krta…aisa kabada hua L bt koini..abhi sirf achi batein..)we were practising simultaneousy….i wud stop dancing in b/w  n keep on luking at dat practising happy pair…I dnt knw y bt I ws being pulled towards dm..i ws feeling lyk ah! Wish I cud do it 2 L…pooja n d odr grl(I forgot d name) wud interrupt me n bring me out of my dream…

Bt pta mujhme ek azeeb deformity h…I can handle all d pain n sadness all alone bt happiness, my stupid dreams ,wishes batane se rokna mere bas ki bat ni h…akhir kya kehkr roku khud ko…sab kuch positive lagne lgta h...mano  sab destined h..;)(ya yun keh lo ki ye ek bahana h,dil ki baat manne ka! :P)  to maine usi khushi me anurag se keh diya..yr mera bohot mann kr rha h ye dance krne ka…mera to apni performance me mann he ni lag rha…to fir he said..kr lo na mam…n fir te sara thuanu pta he h :P ;)

So we 2 were performing nw….acha ek min jab tumhara nam suggest kiya to mere dimag me ek khayal ye bhi aya tha..ki tm sochoge kaisi ladki h..bus dance krna h..ye bhi ni pta ki partner kaun hoga! Khair tum he nikle…n I had a good impression of u..

Though cs tumhe har bat me nali me luthorti thi  n crane se bhi latkaya tha( dusht ladke!! Tumne use ye bta diya tha) bt side by side tareef krk nullify bhi krti rehti…n dere were a few more instances dat led me 2 belv dat u r a gud prsns….(vl tell dm later)..

Coming back 2 d topic..so we startd dancing…my happiness knew no bounds!..i ws a bit conscious bt wen I saw u dat my partner ws doubly conscious dan me…I realy wantd 2 laugh dn I thought chhodo yr..aise to ho gya dance! Fir we discussed a few steps widout music…n d lift dat ws cancelled is 1 of my fav..(swings se mujhe bachpan se pyar h n tumne to mujhe bde maje me jhula diya..bda maza aya..hehe…dto) bt acha hua dat ws cancelled..cs n mamta told me dat it wsnt luking decent nuf 4 RO..n dn in one u were nt able to lift me properly..i guess u weren’t comfortable holding me…dn I hd to place ur hands on my waist myself…dat ws really embarrassing….n yet another 1..wen d last lift dint go ryt…u forgot 2 tilt ur head backwards..(I hope u r in DTO mode)..

Bt ab dance krna tha to kab tak sharmate…bt ye mazedar  tha ki ladka ladki se zyada sharma rha tha n d grl ws trying 2 shed his hesitation...:P kitna seedha bcha type  feel ho rha h na :P :P. N dn dere were odr steps..sum really sweet..especially d 1..in which I had to bring my hand near ur face..ur eyes lukd 2 innocent…n ur face..damn serious man! Kya solid xpressions hote the! n in d step in we had 2 cross r arms behind d head..yr seriously tum kitne lambe ho..mujhe wo pura step uchak k krna pd rha tha..meri height theek thak h,..bt tumne to bona feel kara diya! N d step in which I had 2 turn around n hug u(sort of) frm d back…I cudnt feel comfortable till end..u evn pointd out it once bt ofcource in vain :P.  Soon, all my conscious disappeared…n I ws njoyng every moment of r dance J

I cald u apurv sir…n ws addressed as shweta mam by u..dat ws really sweet…wo chhoti wali chhedkhani…mazedar thi yar…m tot gayi thi wid radhika…n cs cald me saying dat u r missing me…haha…samajh aa gya kitni nautanki chal rahi h mere peeche…..wapas aayi to d entire  oorja team ws dere..sham k andhere me wen we performed, aparna said”rulaoge kya apurv” dat ws really gr8 heartening comment 4 me..:) usk baad d whole team danced on hare k frnd zaroori hota h…yar kya scene tha..bda maza aa rha tha…lag rha tha ki bas waqt aise he tham jae…na jane kab ye pal lautkr ayenge…ayenge bhi ya nahi…har face smile kr rha tha…sab kitne khush the…dil se khush the….d lines written below  r really apt 4 d time..wha khade hokar I ws watching everybody…

“ye raat dhal na jae…samet loon main har pal..

Aa mil k sajayein..jo ana wala h kal…”

Seriously dose days hav been my best days  of colg lyf…hope I get 2 make many more beautiful memories n u 2..:)

N yes upar I left sum part 2 describe later…cs 1nce told me dat u 1c saw me al labour chowk. Dat told me dat u recognise me..dn she told me dat u saw me while coming frm home..i had luggage wid me..u were confused.. should u offer help or not(u had an impression dat I don’t know u).. .though u dint help..bt d thought of it made me think dat u r good boy…n ofcource ur statuses told a lot about u..:P

When It All Started: Part 2

After 4 days of thrill,fun,intense competetion,enjoyment,introduction to new technologies,learning & a very tight schedule, fynally i am bak to continue the story that i had left...Its been a long tym n i was desperate(justifying the name ;)) to write this one...

So,starting frm where i left ya fir old hindi serials k jaise..."aur ab aage..."...:P ;)
I told u that how from nowhere the song 'teri kami' & then the team 'teri kami' came into the scene.After doing the 1st lift dat was eventually cancelled(thanks to satyam sir who thot that it was nt decent enough fr RO nd our clg to wich i also agreed) i knew it from the faces f my frns(those smiling cats!!!) dat nxt month or yr or 2 weren't gonna be easy fr me.I cud hav been  assigned a new name,ppl wud now hav a new face to tease me with,a new character etc etc...I just had to make it sure that it didnt continue fr long,although destiny had diffrent ideas...

As soon as teri kami was fynallised i cud c a new excitment in the janta sitting there. Aparna, shef, chandni, mamta, shabnam etc(matlab saare khalihar log,KV nd kullu were busy as alwys) ki shakal se to excitment tapak raha tha,they were getting to c a totally new side of my personality.Some1 lyk me doing a serius wala dance no. wud hav been in the last few things they wud hav thot abt me.

As mentioned the initial few steps were the toughest part.Specially the way i had to get up,mann dancing was never dat tough fr me.Anurag nd party were tryng their best to help me do it,bt in vain.I was afraid raat bhar na practice karni pad jae uthne ki.Bt then came my dance partner(who "now i knw" was enjoying it...dussht ladki :P ) with a suggestion "apna head piche ki ore free chhod do na"...bas yahin kam ban gaya.Steps after this weren't a big deal,jst the synchronisation was missing.

Then some of the lifts were practised & i cud c that "kutil musakan" on tiwari's face wondering wat was to come later in the eve.This alongwith my own consciousness made me xtra cautious,i didnt want to mess things up at any cost.The steps specially lifts were such dat a li'll here n there nd ny girl cud hav taken me in wrong sense(i am writing my crude feelings at that tym wich i hav pbbly told u earlier too,DTO them). Moreover i had no idea wat typ of girl Shweta was & also the fact that she ws chandni's rumy i had to ensure that i was nt taken wrongly(although i knew aparna,shef nd shayad even chanda were confident i ws nt that type of a boy).Neways the practice continued.

Some of the steps that anurag nd varsha decided were really cute.But ye chirkut ladki na,madam to pareshan hi kar din thi kabhi payal se chot de rahi thi kabhi galat way me jump karke nd rolling waale step(i dnt knw wat exactly dat step is calld) me apne hair se to poocho hi mat,evrytym no matter they were tied or left open,mere expressions ki to waat hi laga de rae the,samajh ni aa raha tha step karun ya inke hair se bachun :/.Ab tak humlog itne frank ho chuke the ki i cud point that out,though of no use.:/ ;)

We did  practice fr a considerable no. of tyms dat day and i had the feel wat i was upto.Fir kya thode aur auditions fr singing nd dancing(i was a busy person now wich ws also irritating me),thodi aur plannings,flex ka discussion(sab mujhi ko karna padta hai :/) etc nd it ws 8:30,collg chhod ke hostl jane ka tym.Anurag stayed @ my rum that nyt,we were to practice the steps @ nyt as i still had some pblms nd we had to get the synchronisation done too,but that never actually happened we were tired enough to get bak to our rooms,change & sleep.

Meanwhile,while returning bak to hostel,amit joined us,who was out of college the whole day for buying sm stuff nd was compeletly unaware of wat all had happened.When tiwari told him abt the dance he was lyk "kya?bhakk ******** mazak mat karo" then turning towards me,his eyes wide open "apurv,sai me??"...all i cud react with was a stupid si,blushing wali smile,nd he understood.Uske baad to maut thi meri...raste bhar teri kami hi hota raha,Amit did came with the deadly blow i ws afraid of, "accha ab samajh aya subah apurv kyu keh raha tha abt the 'singh' girl",fir to even i cudnt stop myself frm laughing my throat out.Bhagwan bhi kya kya game khelte hain,khali-peeli sidhe saade bacche ko badnam kar diya :P ;)...

Raat ko sote tym i msgd aparna asking wat were her thots,i shud continue wid d perfomance or not nd her words were really relaxing(shez a sweet heart really),i still remember "are pagal ho kya,tum kar loge.Aaj to tumhara ekdam naya side dekhne ko mila.Keep it up.Abhi so jao kal fresh hoke practice bhi karni hai."That was the final touch that stamped me into 'teri kami'...

Then din bhar k kai saari baten sochte hue ranging frm the voice of shweta(lolzz...she was a 1st yr who came fr auditions fr singing & had an excellent voice) to the flex design,to the muscles dat i pulled & the new frnd that i made mai neend ki god me chala gaya...

Phewww...isi ke sath this special day of 26th september khatam hua...

Next day ke liye stay tuned...:P ;)

an answer.....

I think I hav got answr 2 ur question(remember ur status)…..well d situation promptd me 2 think ovr it…y do i wantd a persn in my lyf…well nt having frnz can never b a reasn 4 it(in my case)..d reasns  were different..i hv mentioned a few here..dey mite help u too...u knw wht feelings r really very simple…its jst dat we run away from accepting dem…dey r really simple, pure n serene…jst natural n beautiful….hope u r reading it wid full feeling though I m xpecting u r nt.

u knw wht we hav plenty of ppl around us..bt still we miss sm1…sm1 who cud jst cum suddenly frm  nowhere n cuddle u frm behind n giv solace 2 ur heart…ofcourse dere has 2 b smthing special abt him/her..
parents care for us wen we r small..wait! dnt start  judging me…wen we grow up, parents still love n care us…bt dey stop showing..dey want u 2 face d wrld n grw strong…hm bhi ghr se nikalte hain pure vishwas k sath dat m strong nuf 2 face it all..bt dere is a fear in ur heart(u dnt accept it) u want sm1 2 luk into ur eyes n hold ur hand n tell u its gonna b fy9..nobdy wud repeat d same line 4 u hundred times dan d 1 who loves u..
u hav frnz 2 talk2 bt still we say we want sm1 wid whum I can share everything…u can definitely share everything wid frnz…bt dere is fear again dat stops u..strange bt true..m sure u rnt comfortable pouring ur heart in frnt of ur evn best frnd in d purest form of feelings.. its dn u think of a hypothetical person 2 whom u cud hav told it all n felt lighter...u tell ur frns ;dey hear  n giv u deir xpert advices. Bt smtimes we dnt want advices(situations lyk where tym is an ans or do nt hav ny ans)..al we want is r lover 2 kiss away d pain frm r heart..n a shoulder 2 relax on..ofcorce ur frnz vl say chal bahar chlte h..mood sahi ho jayega.. daru party krte hain..etc etc..bt jst think of d pleasure dat a hug can giv u.. d smile on his/her face, d radiance,tangling ur finger in2 her/his  hair or fingers etc( sry m thodi zyada sapneeli hun..dnt knw if u knw dis syd of me)…
u hav ur younger sis/ bro 2 take care of bt still u need 1 4 whom u want to liv, 4 whom u wrk n 4 whom u can sacrifice everything….loving  sm1 n being lovd by d same persn  is really d most beautiful feeling in d wrld…u want 2 take care of dat spcl sm1…u allow ur sis/bro  2  face d wrld(again d same feeling..u want dm 2 grw up n get strong) bt d spcl persn is already of ur age(near about…m nt talking about cheeni kam cases)..u want 2save her/ him frm d harsh realities of wrld…u wanna take her face in cup of ur hands(cup nt literally…jst imagine her face in ur hands) n keep her safe..protect her..u take her as feeble, soft doll who jst needs u or is crazy nuf 2 get in2 troubles…n u want 2 b wid her/him  preserving frm every prick on d way..a single tear in her eyes can create earthquake,landslides all at d same tym in ur heart…n dn wen dat sm1 jst turns her face n smiles at u..all ur  tention vanishes..its virtual bt wid real feel..amazing realisation…if u ever paid attention to all wht I wrote dere is 1 thing commo manifesting itself in different forms….guess wht??

Try try…u can…hmmn… okhei…its  d sweet ,gentle ‘touch’…plz..DTO.. I expect u 2 b serious n no joke OR insane thoughts abt it..u knw y ppl do handshake..its a touch dat brings warmth..a trange feel of trust..ur hanshake can tel smwht abt ur personality..evn if d prsn is nt physically present in frnt of u..u try 2 feel her/hm, miss her/hm..feel of her being close...u need sm1 4 whom u can proudly say 2 urself…she/he is mine ..all mine..jst mine..n m all hers/his… dis feeling of possession is strange bt very strong n relevant 2(though I still don’t support it in frndship).
howsoever u r parents , bro/sis loves u, dis feelin is different....

 We want a spcl persn in lyf..whose very presence can make wrld go beautiful, n whose absence pains lyk nything…d craving 2 reach her/him n take dat persn in ur arms n never let him/her go. Be loved truly, deeply madly n loving d same way…smtimes dere is a lot of joy in giving ur everything  2 a person…songs aise he ni  hote..dere is a lot of reason in dm..
ptani maine yahi sochkr likha tha k ni…jaise he feel hua k ans mila likh diya..ho skta h beech me koi aur road pakad li ho..i mite hav been carried away by feelings while writing it..hope it answers ur question..all d best!!

ps: pta ni kya kya likh diya,ab padhkr khud hasi aa ri h...bt bohot serious,ekdum charged wid feelings wali state me likha tha..

jst d beginning ;)..

october 25, 2011

11:30am

Hi diary..

It has been a long time since I shared my secrets wid u….sry 4 being so busy..bt u knw I cant stay away frm my lov 4 long..so here I m back again wid lots of happiness and, of cource, wid hoards of confusion…As I promised u dat I wont let my dis sem  go in vain n dat I’l do smthng interesting n happening . So, 2day ws d second day of SAJ(sports events)….I participated in googly…d cricket wid special rules for girls I told u, remember??..smtimes its really good 2 b a girl n hv a poor sex ratio ;-) ..the govt gives u reservation in education, parliament, njoy benefit in lesser income taxes etc..hey sry sry.. c’mon u knw me diary..i ws jst kidding.

Cuming back 2 d topic..Aftr d match I ws quite tired..ofcource nt bcz of playing bt awieee…colg ki sadke naapte-2  shayad…n also it hadn’t been a gud day 4 nsp(nainsukhprapti)..last time to kitne bande pasand aye the..n abki bar to ek b ni L . Well aftr d match I jst went 2 my rum n thought of lying on mah bed n dream. My fav timepass J :P :D…bt suddenly my phone rang..i liftd it quickly…it gives me immense pleasure wen my phone rings ;)…it was mamta…she askd me 2 cum dwn near d transformer…all my tiredness disappeared at once..it wsnt d time 2 dream..it ws 4 action!!

I went dere……to me d scene sumhw appeared artistic… it’s a bit difficult 2 xplain bt lemme try..u knw I lyk strange things. I m also quite obsessed with sitng on side of a clean road in a group. No no..nt 4 strike or dharna(though dats xciting too) n nt evn wid ny bowl in mah hand  bt jst  awiee, casually.. hanji to sb itne aaram se sadak kinare pasre hue the..n kullu k mathe me to itni tension bhari lines thi k I cud visualise wo  50 saal bad kaisa lagega :P..tiwari ji apne me he mughd the..varsha n anurag were trying 2 think of sum steps ….hmmn….kuch to rangeeniyat thi us nazare me .. mano..

“Ek Shararat Hone Ko Hai
Ek Qayamat Hone Ko Hai”:P

 I hd 2 coreograph sm  songs  for JHANKAAR…mamta knew my love for dance n hd cald me at once she felt d need. Bt u knw hw shy I m..(blush ka smiley ni pta..manage wid this) J!  At first, I hesitated  bt cudnt stop my feet picking up d beats 4 long..dancing is 1thing dat can make me go mad n forget everything...i m jst myself while dancing n my happiness knws no bounds...d smile, laugh all cums straight from d heart..everything gets beautiful..:). People  siting out dere were murmering smthing…n I knew wht ws it abt…every grl is blessed wid a special sixth sense ;).  Soon mamta  askd me if I can perform in OP n whispered in my ears, all the appreciation I ws getn.…I found myself blushing J n beeming with joy. Like every other grl, I 2 love appreciation.;).

RO Plant doesn’t njoy good repo in r colg..bt u knw since first yr I wanted 2 perform on R.O. It ws ofcourse d best time. Bt I hav a protocol “never accept wht ur heart says at first..mind is wiser..let ur heart convince ur mind...” . so, I refused.   I ws afraid of getng defamed. U knw it matrs a lot 2 me.  So, here I m in a fight mind vs heart..its really interesting  bt requires a hell lot patience n sumtimes coffee 2…yeah..it helps keeping u in ur senses..:P

N pta I heard a new song 2day…”teri kami”..anurag  suggested 2 dance on it..yr gazab ka song tha…n video bhi bohot sahi thi…bt we hav jst 1 day left for preparation L. Ab to mushqil h..koini  we wil take sum odr song….:/

In all had a mast, rapchick day….lets c wat awaits 2mrw...my fingers r crossed!! J

When it all began: part1

hmmm...to kahan se start karen...its always easier to suggest than to follow the same...:P
i am also taking u bak to the day when it all probably started...all bole to dosti...;)
so...it was a bright monday morning...after speaking a series of lies to KV, i fynally showed up in college,late again for the serius wali preparation of OP i.e. JHANKAAR '11.Reason for being late was dat i had to come frm my bro's place...
Making my way to college and preoccupied by the thoughts of what happened last day(my meeting with aditi my childhood friend) and some other ppl i knew, i unknowingly & out of stupidity said to my frns "yarr tum log ko pata hai,mujhe lagta hai meri shaadi kisi 'singh' se hi hogi" ;), totally unaware of what was gonna come in the near future.
Neways, after some auditions taken in the courtyard,near AB3 & on the RO v the team got a permanent adda- 'girls hostel k paas wala generator'...
Since i had to meet aditi nd swati i cud not show up on sunday fr the preparation.The major updates that i recieved were that anurag nd varsha were rdy fr a duet and we had another dance group with 3 grls, shweta from 3rd year(better known to us as chandni's nd mamta's rumy 'then') and 2 girls frm 2nd year.Some other auditions were dun,then the progress in the dances that had been fynallised were seen(which were pathetic,seriusly) :P...yea madhubala lukd exciting...
Then anurag came to me telling me dat he wantd to do 'teri kami',the song nd d vdo i showed him 2 days bak,mind u jst fr the sake of showing.I ws strictly against performing it coz i didnt want ny compromises with this song...
My 1st 2nd nd 3rd reactions were nai yar,dimag kharab hai kya nd 2 din me its impocible,since i just loved the song & did not want to waste it...i realise it now how special it turned out to be...:))
Fine then sum1,i dnt remmber who sed kar lene de yar,anurag also sed he had thot of some steps too nd went on pressing for it,so i fynally agreed...:)
So this is how 'teri kami' came into the picture.
Practice ke tym pe chalte hain,i ws still nt sure if i wanted it to happen,bt then since i was helpless,i decided y nt give the best we had to mak it a superhit.To humlog lag gae, anurag,varsha playing the lead nd were being ably guided by shweta(still chandni nd mamta ki rumy :P) who had the impression of one of the bttr dancers in d 3rd yrs(han baad me i gave her a tough competeion ;):P) nd with me keeping a constant watch over the proceedings.I was mid way probably explaining some step or may be some joke when shef nd aparna said 'apurv tum dance kyu nai kar lete??' (pbbly owing to the reputation that i earned in discs in oorja partys).Nd i said mazak me 'tumhe uthaenge hum?? Uske liye tumhe kritesh se bat karni chahiye.'  Ispe shef said are mere nai kisi aur ke sath karlo fir sm1 suggested 'shweta' itna suggest karne ki der thi ki half of the janta started saying han han karlo karlo,ek bar try to karo,stage bahot empty lagega sirf 2 logon me etc etc..nd i was lyk haiin???ai ki ho riya hai??? Dancing in a disc ws a different thing alltogethr..Although i had the experience of 4-5 perfomances bt those were school days nd yahan aake that too in 3rd year- BIG DEAL!!!
Neways thode se ana-kani nd then mujhe manna hi pada.Fir kya 1-2 lifts ki practice.Lifting a 47kg Shweta was nvr gonna be difficult fr a tough,70kg Apurv.:P
The tougher task was still to come,facing ur frns aftr doing those lifts wid a grl...facing all those insane comments and tolerating,although shweta wasnt that close or special(at that tym),bt still it felt bad...://
Neways,then me nd anurag started practicing fr the initial steps featuring jst us(me nd him).Mann!! that was the most difficult phase,pata nai kahan kahan ki muscles pull huin while practicing those steps.It was then that the thot of backing out crossed my mind bt then i recalled anurag saying "sir shweta maam ka bhi bahot man hai ye karne ka,kar lo na...",followed by a look at "chandni's nd mamta's rumy ;)" which showed me a fully charged and enthusiastic grl discussing smthng with varsha...and then i thot 'kar hi lete hain yar..'


PS:- koi ehsan ya daya nai,jst going with my basic philosphy that i wantd evry1 to be happy :)


Coming to shweta,who now was my dance partner apart frm my frns' rumy...The few instances of our interaction before that were pbbly sm fb comments out of wich i remmbered 1 wich she did on one of my status in wich i wrote smthng against the use of abusive language wich gave me an impression that "ye ladki to samajhdar lagti hai" ;)... 
V were pbbly destined to be bttr frns...:) ;) :(
It was a long day will post the rest of the story later...till then...
To be continued...

PS:-To White Shadow-
 yarr iitk ke liye robot ka bohot sara kam karna hai to i wrote it with thoda hila hua mind so neglect all grammatical mistakes :P...nd same rsn ke karan thoda tym of 26th september is still left...will update it later...
its ur turn now...GO FOR IT nd AB KOI BAHANA NAI CHALEGA...do also tell me humlog ekdusre ke liye 3rd person use karenge ya 2nd person,bada confused hun yarr...

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heyllo...ye llo...:P
i hav created it,bada cnfusing hai yarr...used to hone me thoda tym lagega...
edit profile me jaake apne interests etc bhi add kar skti ho as a tym pass,maine apne kar diye hain... enjoyy...:)